That's what so bad about living in such a fast paced country.
You forgot about sitting down, you forgot about resting, & You have definitely forgotten about enjoying the process of growing up.
Thinking about your future, waiting so impatiently to grow up and to start your own family.
Or to see yourself start a career, seeing what you will do in future.
You get so excited, you get so jumpy, you have really forgotten to enjoy the process.
Finally, getting to sit down, to rest and to think, I've realised and am still realising that so many things and people around me has changed.
I was just looking back, yet again, on the pictures in my facebook and just listening to all the songs that I used to hear. Memories and emotions just ran over me.
Over the past 16 years, from the moment I step foot on this earth till now, boy have I grown.
Physically and emotionally.
From the time I started schooling in preschool, to kindergaten, to primary school and to secondary school. To realising my dream and to actually walk it out, everything has just been so breath taking, sometimes literally too.
From the time I know about this thing called
love, I've always wanted to try it out. To be holding hands with a guy, to get a peck on the cheek from a guy and to go on dates with a guy. Ever since young, romantic movies always inspired me to be a loving girl, to be a girl just like in the movies. Haha and now, I see myself in a love movie. No more day-dreaming. I'm walking it out too. Going through joy and laughter, pain and sorrows, with a guy whom I know I want to spend my life with, to a guy I will get married to, and to a guy I know I will always love.
Even though there are painful moments here and there, but like always in romance movies, there'll always be happy endings. & i know one day, I will see mine :)
From the time I had my very first friend, to the times I had many friends. To the time I stepped out and made friends. Seeing friends grow, seeing friends come and go, seeing bestfriends, seeing friends who betray you. Thinking about the times that we've shared, thinking about the places where we loved to go, thinking about all the gossips we shared, and the hugs we gave each other when we had tears streaming down our cheeks. To the "HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL", to the "I love you, thanks for being my friend". To the ups and downs, the quarrels that we go through. To the times we studied together, to the times we all went crazy shouting for Jesus.
From the time I saw my parents and called "mummy" & "daddy", from the first time they saw me walk, from the first time I ate by myself. From the first coin they gave me, the first birthday present I received from them, the first time they brought me out to play. The first exclaimation my parents gave when they saw me " IS THIS MY CHILD?!" and to the first smile they both gave me. The first hug, the first kiss they both gave. The first time I got disciplined, the first time I got whacked. & to the time they saw me grew, to where I am now. I don't know where I will be if I haven't got any one of them.
I seriously don't know how these memories could just suddenly pop right into my head and make me tear.
Really, God is so good. I'm really very blessed that I didn't die like some babies when after birth. I'm really very blessed to have people like them in my life.
To even just knowing them makes me smile, and thank God that our paths are now as one.
We will walk together and forever for the rest of the journey. Praise you Jesus.
& At the end of the day, I want to sing :
" God of my youth, I remember.
Your call on my life took me o'er.
Your love has seen me through all my days,
I stand here by Your Grace.
On this alter, I've written my life.
Tells of the story I have with you my Lord.
I want the world to know.
God of my Forever"
