Dear Darrel, Army day 80 :)

Just finish watching this film bout Germans and Jews.
It was a really good show, with a large amount of sadness in the show as they show you 'behind the scenes' of what happened during the halocust.
Really...just give me such a 'uncomfortable' feeling, even now.
But, it's reality...sad to say.

Anyways, I feel really good today, at the end of the day to be exact.
I don't know how, because the whole day, so many quarrels were just there.
For us to start and not for us to end.
It ended...somehow 'by itself'
So, thank you Jesus :) For always being with us.

Love you.

Dear Darrel, Army day soon-to-be 80th-day : Musical day, Love is all possible.

So, 80th day tmr in the army.
How time pass by so quickly.
6 months has almost past, since the first day you stepped into army.
What a long journey.....& I just still remember the feelings that I had when you went in.
Now...not to say I'm all good bout it, but it has been better.

Sigh, I just feel all.....moody today.
So many things that just kept making me think.
I feel like...
Actually, I can't phrase anything in my mind now.
It still feels so tired, it feels like...
(You see what I meant? After every start of the sentence, I just can't be bothered to think anymore)

I think I need a food therapy. I need to eat to make myself feel better.
Or maybe, a little retail therapy would also work.
Alright, I shall try it tmr.

Sigh sigh sigh.
Still feel so grumpy and so.........argh.

help me Jesus!

Dear Darrel, Army day 70 : The I-feel-so-blessed-day

Dear Mr Darrel,
You might not have known, but for the whole day today, you've succeeded making me a happy, smiling, dancing singing girl.
& it was also because of Jesus!
The day, I was just thinking bout you, and feeling so blessed over and over again.
Really feel that way sweety, and i want you to know that you're the only special person in my life that has ever made me feel this way :)

I was just thinking to myself today :'we've gone through year 3. I cant wait for year 4! :D'
I've already fast forward my life to year 4 and anticipating excitedly for it :) hehe

Still feeling so blessed, even up till now.
This 'love' must have came from JESUS. The only one who loved us even after so many things.
Because, I dont know how it happened, but we have been failling in love with each other so much more recently. Dont you think so? :)
I DO!
& i"m still holding on to the confirmation that Jesus gave to me :)
That special and precious one to me, that kept us going for such a long time :)

I love you baby! you always make me feel like I'm on top of the world :)

You burn my heart out

Have you ever just felt so tired before?
Felt like the whole day has just been so crap but nothing bad actually happened on that day?
You feel like you're living out of this human life, doing more than you have ever done before and that makes you tired.
You feel like crying and crying and letting everything out.
You feel like screaming and you just feel like.......you're alone in this.
Everything seems so new to you.
You really feel so tired, so so tired.

Your heart feels so empty.
You feel so sick, so hurt...
You cry alone in the dark, you share with no one but yourself.
All the emotions are just inside of you, waiting to pour out.

You just feel like you are not yourself anymore.
You ask yourself questions like 'Are you strong enough to take this?'
You question yourself so many times a day, hoping for an answer.

You call out to God, but God feels so distant away from you.
You ask him to show you signs, but no matter how many times you ask, there is just nothing.

You feel like telling yourself 'Just give up.'
You ask yourself 'When will this be over? How long more will everything take?'

You feel so hard, like a rock.
But yet, on the inside, you feel like a soft tiny jelly.

I need a break, I REALLY NEED A BREAK.

Dear Darrel, Army day 61 : I have so many things to say

There's really just so many things that I want to pour out today.

First thing first, thank you JESUS for today, even though things were like just WRONG and were just shit shitty. but I thank you Jesus for today, tmr will be better and even more bless :) AMEN :)

Next, I mss you boy! Miss you so much!

There's just so many thing that I really wanna tell you and.....

Sigh, the day is just ending now. I don't wanna rake everything up here now and type it all down.

just too tired.

Ever since school started again, the lathargic-ness just came back.

Jesus, please remind me day in and day out of my beauty in Christ!

That's all im gonna say. Lazy tired to continue typing.....

Dear Darrel, Army day 60 : Wenhui had a bad day

Dear Darrel leong, I am so tired today :(
Really miss you so much and really want to see you as soon as possible!


Today, someone said something and it really caught me : I think you and Darrel are very good.
So far, as long as I think I know, no one has said that for our r/s?
Idk, but who cares! Praise God! :D


It really caught my ears and my attention and I immediately went smiling all over in my heart.

You feel...so happy. So blessed, furthermore, it was after how we both felt about the met ups that we just had recently.
Praise Jesus. It can only be our Daddy God who did this for us. :)
Not by our own effort or our own love that can do this and makes this r/s so nice and so memorable. It is really by Jesus, that the little things that you do and make me laugh, means even so much to me and it made me love you so much more, even without me knowing.

That is precious, that is from Jesus :)

& i pray that it will never NEVER ever end :) AMEN :)