i thought it was all over for us.

but i was wrong. you went and talk to me.

i cried.

i dont know for what reason.

is it because that you talked to me?

i guess it was so.

was it tears of joy?

or was it just the sadness that was overflowing in me?

i did not know, but i was glad that we talk.

i had to know the reason that leaded us to this stage.

why are we not talking?

im afraid that you found out the truth.

i told hardlyno one about my feelings for you.

the ppl i told were the ones that i truely trust.

what if it was him?

i doubt so.

im really sad and so frustrated.

i hope that we can be together.

i hope that we can even just be friends now.

you were the one that made me so happy,

you were the one that put out the flames in me.

you were the one that love me for who i am.

you were the one that is such a good friend.

you were the one that nvr leave me when i needed someone.

you were the one that accompanied me when i was lonely.

you were the one that stayed with me throughout the night.

you were the one that i cried for.

you were the one that i think of all day long.

and

you will only be the one i love.

i nvr had to say this but i think we are gone.

of all the hope and dreams i had on you,

you crashed them all to pieces.

i had nvr love someone so much lyk you do.

although i nvr want to say it that way,

but in this life i had,

you made me cry the most.

you did not talk to me,

you did not be that friend that i need,

you nve came to be my superman

and rescued me from the high tower.

i have said all this things, but i just want to tell you that,

i will nvr give up that love i had for you.

i nvr will.

oh how so much i had dreamt all days to be with you.

i built many many castles of you.

i had dreamt that you were mine.

we had so much fun together.

we stick together,

we played together,

we cried together,

we laughed together,

we went to everywhere with each other,

and the most i love was the one that

i watched the stars with you under the lovely blue starry night.

you held me in your arms so tight.

you nvr let me go.

i want to spend ertenity with you.

we walked that soft soft sand,

holding hands we nvr fall.

the cold cool water that we walk,

and as we pray that we will make it through all.

i love you baby (:

NICKY FROM WESTLIFE IS JUST SO DROP DEAD GORGEOUS! HE IS THE MOST HANDSOME HUNK I HAD EVER SEEN! WOOH! ^^

YAY! HE IS MY LOVE!

did not felt lyk blogging last two days so did not blog. yeah!

i had cg on on tuesday and my, was it HORRIBLE. i hate that stupid teacher. she looked so lyk a china doll. she was such a bitch okay. she scolded lyk everyone. she has serious attitude problem. i suggest that she should go see a doctor. she is from singapore orchestra. but so what lar. then she thinks she is the BIGGEST. bullshit lar. then she change all the fingerings and just expect us to learn just lyk that, giving us darn little time to even get use to it first. then she scold me just because i kept on eating sweets. then she say dont know eat too much later will become idoit. lyk that say me leh. im lyk wtf. GRR. talk about her makes me sick. then she say if we fail her test, we will have to stay back EVERYDAY and practise. ahhhhhhh! who does she think she is to ask us to stay back everyday and practise? if my mum doesn't even do that. grr. I HATE HER!! lets change the subjuct lar. talking about her makes my blood boil.

then in the morning we had pe for lyk 2 hrs plus? cool huh. play frisbeeeee! wooh! and i sweat soo much. gross. yucks. but nvm. its all worth while (: hehe!

nvm. lets talk about yesterday!

i went swimming at roxanne's hse. wooh! boy did we all had soooo much fun playing ball in the water. i played with zoey, roxanne and my sister. it was her birthday. yups. so she invited us to play (X anyways i just wanna say again....HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROXANE!! (:

my lovely darling babeh! ahaha! then we had pizza for dinner. and we played and played and played for the whole day lyk that. then i sat a bus home with my family, big and small and zoey, home. my sister and zoey slept in the bus lyk two BIG piggys, with their heads together and snoring loudly. ahahah! and then i went home and slept lyk a piggy too (:

okay buhbye.

aiyoh! today is lyk so boring lar. thw whole day in school was free. though its better then studying, but it is lyk yucks. i almost fell asleep. but the movie was awesome! its was coach carter. its about this basketball team. they had serious attitude. but they got a new coach and it change their attitude and they won all the games, but they failed their tests. that was sad. ahaha! cut the long story short, they lost the last championship match but out of the whole match, 5 got the scholarship. and they were great! one was suppose to go to jail if he get caught but he repent and he became good. the movie was so sweet and touching. i almost cried. aww, haha! (X

sigh. tmr another school day in school, i wonder what movie will we watch? hope its good and will not make me sleep. yeah! soooo bored. no one talk to me.

i think something has happen to my friendship. one was reconciled then yet another one is going to be destroyed. i dont know by what and i really wish to know.

its soooo sad. we really dont talk at all already. not even a single word :(

i really wanna cry and i want us to talk again. i hope he doesnt know that i lyk him, or not we will really go bye bye to our friendship and everything, sigh.

daddy in heaven, help save our friendship lord. i really dont wanna see us lyk that, its cracks my heart in to bits. the feeling ain't good. save us lord!!!!

I DONT WANNA TALK ANYMORE!

i was suppose to go to church this morning with sheryl then i forget!!

i could not wake up at all. then i was lyk SHIT when i woke up. jialat!

SORRY SHERYL!!!

i wonder if she was angry. if she is then it will be OH NO for me. nvm. i guess ill have to buy her something to make her happy. yups (X nah. maybe not. but im sure she wont be soooo petty to remember this incident. i hope. too tired lar. that's why canot wake up to go to church. sooo early ask me wake. even school also not so that early. ahaha.

i wanna go to watch movie. wait. noooo. i wanna go blading. YEAH! and take loads and loads of NEOPRINTS. wait. im feeling another thing. I WANNA GO SHOPPING! YES YES YES! who wants to go with me?! hahah! im going sooo crazy. YIPEE~ but too bad. now money crisis. then must help save :( LORD GIVE US , MONEY. AND LET US BE ABLE TO KNOW HOW TO SAVE UP. haha! AMEN (: or maybe.....someone can lend me? oh yeah! nah. too bad already. nvm

another problem. should i go for the sec2 camp? i think its a waste of time and money lar. go there for only lyk 2 days and its $30 and we have to sleep in tents. EWW! WHAT IF CREEPY CRAWLIES GET IN? AND BITES US ON OUR BUTT? AND WHAT IF THE BUGS ARE POISONOUS? THEN WILL WE AL BE DEAD? AHHHH! stupid me. im thinking too much. but seriously, i dont wanna go. its lyk sooooooo stupid. really. and what are we gonna go there? climb trees? catch spiders? ah idoit ideas this idoit school has come up with. and worse, its compulsory. IF WE DONT GO, THE SAMSIAH WILL COME AND BREAK OUR BONES. if we have MCs? can we not go anymore? i pray that it would be a YES and our precious lifes would be save. { haha. im lyk in some kinda of drama XP } cut the crap girl.

anyway later ill be going to my grand's. hope there is some nice food there to eat not lyk my lunch. it was horrible. the cha que tiao was so yuck! the noodles were all packed together. then when i use the chopsticks to take them up, they were all lyk stuck together. they were all lyk square shape. one whole thing. eew. then it was sooo dry and tasteless and, just one word horrible. should be happy that you still got food to eat. my mummy would say to me if i complain about the food she bought home. yeah. so nasty.

ill go and do a quiz first. be back here tmr? maybe or tonight (:

im upset. really really upset :(

why isn't he talking to me anymore? i guess we are gonna drift apart soon.

we are not even talking anymore. where have you gone?

i just wanna hear your voice or see you speak. at least i know that you are okay.

you made me missed you for many many days. many many times.

did i do something wrong? or you are told that your my crush? i have been longing to talk to you.

i have been thinking of you soooo badly these days.

it seemed all so wrong. one day you were smiling and talking to me.

then the next, we kept quiet. all i want is to hear your voice.why must you avoid me.

i dont know if you are, but thats what i think. i really wanna be with you.

i wanna be able to be kept warm in your arms. i wanna love you with all my heart.

i wanna see you every moment. i want i want.

its all that i want. and is that vry hard for you?

you made me cry in the middle of the night, alone on my bed.

you crack my red heart. crack it open and left it there hanging. nvr bothering to seal it up.

you left it lyk that with the pure red blood flowing right out.

last time, i cried and you dried it. now, it flowed and flood the place.

you always seem to know when i was feeling low and you came to my rescue,

being my superman and carrying me in your arms to a safety. you calmed me down and took care of me.

but now, now of my these things happen again. what is wrong between us?

is there a wall build? tell me, what is wrong? i dont want us to be lyk that. sigh.

oh i pray that daddy in heaven will solve this problem and hear my cries.

take me to a happy place and bring him there along too.

where our fairytale will not end and be together till forever. i pray that nothing would go wrong between us. not our friendship. i nvr want it to end. i want it to stay daddy.

i really do. let him be always there for me daddy.

i really pray with my all my faith. amen.

we will be together, my darling (:

yesterday i was thinking to go to church or to the soccer match. guess what? in the end, i did not go to any one of the two. hahaha! ^^ could not wake up at all. but tmr going to church. yeah! so darn boring today. stayed at home from morning all the way till the afternoon. then went downstairs play volleyball till evening. stupid neighbour of mine. so asshole. keep on want to take the ball. then dont let the younger brother play. say the mother dont allow because of flu. what bullshit is that. evryone on my team is having flu and yet we are still haivng sooo much fun. so we let his younger play in our team. and that guy is soooo darn selfish lar. dont let his brother join his own team then push him go join our team. im lyk wtf. not saying that the boy isn't good. its just that that is his OWN brother. IDOIT. then we play and play. the mother came down and saw the younger borther playing. then scold him, asking him why he play. then that stupid asshole go and say this :" WENHUI LAR. KEEP ON CALLING HIM TO PLAY. SAY RUNNING NOSE ONLY, NO BIG DEAL. WONT DIE ONE. { he added the WONT DIE ONE inside. i did not say that } THE I WAS LYK WTF lar. PUSH ALL THE BLAME TO ME. i was speaking the truth what. will not die one what. i know im being not good lar. but he seriously want to play and he is angry that his brothers keep on scolding him. then he go and hide one corner, sit down and play his paper aeroplane. SO POOR THING RIGHT? haiyoh! talk about him then angry already. change subjuct (:

ah. then play play play come home then found out that there was no water at all. so thirsty. then no choice, go drink tap water. haha. not so bad lar. just that only no cold water. hehe (X then watch tv and now doing this. nothing to write already. so bye! ^^

IM LKY SO FREAKING BORED! >.<

i so terrbily want to sleep! the flu bug is really killing me now. sighs. cant keep my eyes open. gosh. really cant faint. i cant make up my mind.

should i go to church tml or should i go and see the soccer match. i really dont know which one to choose.

and i have a horrible feeling that THAT particular girl doesn't lyk me. its so out of a sudden. i dont know. and i dont wanna know. should i ask her? i guess i should just keep quiet. but she is going to the match. and i will be lyk seeing her. what's the difference? sigh :( it really makes my mind go BOOM. a really really BIG BOOM.

so now how should i ever choose where to go? i am looking forward to going to church. but also to watch the soccer match. someone help me choose. PLEASE OH PLEASE!

today cg was lyk so DARN boring lar. i almost fell asleep unitl my and my PRETTY senior natelie we went to the junior room and teach them how to play. haha! it was so fun! had loads of fun playing with them. the girls we such darling and kinda easy to teach. praise god that they are willing to learn or else i would die.

bought lots of sweeties today. ate alot. i must really slim down. gosh. im eating too much candies. haha. if only there was such a city that is made of candies, chocolate and many many sweetiessss. then i would live there and nvr come out. hahaha! :D

i SERIOUSLY want to go and watch the hi-5 concert. but sadly, hardly many ppl lyks them. they say im to childish. what is wrong with still watching hi-5 lar. i think its soo cool! hahaha! it so really is. you should really come and watch it with me. OR YOU WILL REGRET! (X

now thinking about that problem again. should i go to the match or to church? sigh i really do not know. i guess i wanna ask that girl about me. friends should be frank with each other and i dont wanna ruin that lovely friendship we have together now. she is such a SWEET babe. i will nvr wanna lose her as a friend and a beloved sister (: YAY I LOVE HER DEARLY!

i dont wanna talk anymore. byebye :D

HORRIBLE-EST DAY! >.<

GOSH! today was so horrible. i failed my maths lar. and it was lyk 35 over a HUNDRED. super JIA LAT right? now i have to see that HORRIBLE MS CHUNG's face again. seeing her face jst makes me want to sleeep. nvr teach properly then say we nvr listen to her. wtf. who can ever stay wide awake in this kind of lesson. even if the person sleep for lyk 24 hrs, when attend her lessons SURE sleep one. trust me. i dont lie XP sigh...my other exams are not really that good. but at least i passed. but i really do pray that i will do super well with walking colours so that i can go to the class i want next year. yeah. i really do pray hard. pray for me too! (X so looong.

YAY!

YAY! i have a blog already! ^^
finally i have a blog and when ppl ask me if i have a blog i can say YES. i know its lame lar. but for first time ppl lyk me happy what. so lyk that lar! haha! (X yipee!