Screw you, you have ruined my life bitch.

Fuck you. You are the one that has ruined my life.

Fuck, why can't I just forget everything?! Why does it still ring in my head.

It has been fucking four long year. FOUR YEARS.

Stupid bitch.

I still feel fucking insecure. fuck. Im really just making life so miserable for him.

why? freaking hell, i wanna know why too.

others are probably living life perfectly well, while mine is just filled with shit.

Shit from work, shit from insecurities. Fuck life. well, Fuck MY life.

grow? i dont see how am I growing. not in a year or in any million other years.

why do i always get into this kind of shit and never get out?

Why must i go through so much trauma.

everything works well for your good? i dont reckon that.

I feel like my world is just turning all upside down. No good feeling about it.

here he is outside, supposing to enjoy himself. but im ruining it all for him.

why must a good day always end this way?

Jesus, if you say you are here, you are God, DO SOMETHING,

fucking do something.

My faith is dropping pit bottom low.

I've got minimal strength left from running all this crap races.

I feel like I cant breathe anymore. i cant face all this.

work? I dont know how to handle it myself.

r/s? what is it anyway? I cant think.

I cant fucking breathe. it haunts me. it really haunts me.

end it please. will you just end it please.

Just give me back my smile. a smile that really comes from within. It hurts me even to say this.

I dont know what am i living for. really.