see the changes and start laughing

"you do not have to be afraid of the ghosts as i am with you. look at me and all your fears will fade away. you are covered by my blood, so no evil can come near you."

i guess jesus really wants me to know this. i was feeling afraid the whole night when my mum told me about this thing which freaked me out. and i did not dare to sleep in the night. so i was browsing through my older posts, i ran across this that jesus told me in my dreams. & he wants me to know this also. i'm covered by the blood of the lamb, so no evil can come near me. thank you jesus :D you know me too well :D

to see what amazing things god is doing in your life,see what the stupid devil is doing and reverse it (: - preston.

this is another thing that jesus wanted me to know. it was said once by preston in his blog. i found it so good. if you dont understand it, just keep on reading it and i am sure something will come out :D

another thing, as i said, i was browsing through all the old old posts. & i realised that jesus has really changed me, from gory to glory :D i used to be such an emo freak that cries over things so easily. & i use to have really emo posts and post that i scolded many people. and as i read, i saw all the changes that has happened to me. i wasn't what i used to be anymore. i used to be this girl that only knows how to say that god is good, but doesnt know how to apply it into my life. and this that i said, and not knowing how to apply it into my life. and i am so glad that i know how to now. last time, i used to take things into my own hands too. but now, i have learned to trust abba and just rest in his love and knowing that i am the righteousness of god in christ and i can do all things through christ who strengthens me. & also knowing that jesus has taken care of my everything and made it all go so well for me. so all praise to jesus and thank you for everything, abba :D

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i just want to continue on god's goodness. i really did not know how much i have changed after i started reading the posts. last time, i really had a hard hard time trying to control my anger. if i am angry, i would just start yelling every shit that i can out of my mouth. & now, i know how to keep quiet and "count to 100". i used to talk without thinking and most of the time, i would get myself into deep shit. but praise jesus! he nvr scolded me for being so rude and when i asked him to help me tame my tongue, he still did and he is still! now, when i want to say something really stupid, i think first. even when i am angry, i would still think! it used to be so impossible the last time, but with jesus, nothing is impossible! there is still more! i had a bad relationship with my dad the last time. we hardly talk, at all. even if we did, it was simple and one ans. but, one day, i just prayed to jesus. i told him how jealous i was to see all daughters with their daddies. and i just told him that i want to be close with my dad too. & jesus is so faithful. he has helped me soooo much. i am so close to my dad now. i tell him things about my life and all. & last time i also used to yell at him, but now, its talking only :D
there are many many more! it was recently, i hated school so much but i just pray to abba. i asked him to help me love school. and guess what. i love my school so much now. and i also used to not be able to wake up for school. then i asked jesus to be my alarm clock. and when its time to wake up, i would just wake up and go to school. and last time, in the morning, i would wake up being so grouchy. but now, praise jesus! i wake up with a smile on my face, every morning without failing! :D see. how good is god. he nvr fail to ans all my prayers! and he can do changes in just one night. i repeat, one night. many things started to change in that one night. and i tell you, the changes are soooo good. i told jesus angrily, that i was not the wenhui that he created. i told him that i dont want my life anymore. then he told me :"if you dont want your life, give it to me." so that night, i just completely gave my life to jesus again. and trust me, i totally changed and many bad situations, he turned it all around for me. & that i would say, to see what amazing things god is doing in your life, see what the stupid devil is and reverse it.

& i just want to to thank god for being always there for me. really, if it was some other people, they would have completely given up hope on me. but jesus has always been there. even though i was such a bad girl, he nvr gave up on me. he came to me even when i needed him so much. and his love for me is just nvr ending. so much love till he died just for me. and when he was on the cross, he thought of me only and no one else :D he love me so much that he is willing to give up everything just for me. no one could change the old wenhui but only he can and he did and he is still doing. i jsut remembered what pastor has shared. god will not rest till everything is good for me. not only good, but perfect for me. *smiles* what can i say, god is really such an awesome god.\