i don't have FRIENDS

why am i still pretending that everything is okay between us
when someting is just wrong?
y'all always go out together and i nvr got invited.
i found out only when people that are INVITED ask me if i was going.
thinking that i am invited
nvm. i guess i'm just not welcome.
y'all are telling me to disappear away from the world.
and if that's your wishes, i will do it.
i dont mind. i dont want to stay in this planet either.
and i'm sure you dont lyk the super sad feeling that you're friends are not welcoming you,
no one wants you around
and loving the wrong guy.
there is just nobody to talk to excapt daddy.
and i'm a kind that needs replies immediately.
and i just dont get them immediately.
it's really just fcuking sad.
really really fcuking sad.
i might just as well be gone.
be bang down by a car.
jump off a building.
slit myself with knifes
and chop my hands and legs all off.
so that i dont have to walk or pick up anything.
i might as well be blind and deaf.
and not know or hear anything.
sometimes i think that i dont even have friends.
i want them but they dont want me.
i dont wanna live anymore.
so if the next morning you read the newspaper
and found out that a girl died because of friendship.
that girl might be IS ME.