you want me to know, now i want you know.

cheryl, in the first place, i nvr tell you say i ps you. i NVR did.
i have nvr leave you out. when you were alone, i went to you, you just kept quiet and smiled at me. so NATRALLY, i would think that you want to be alone, cause you nvr talk to me and you are walking alone, so i just let you. its not that i leave you out
that is just what you thought i did. and during service, zenda was at that space when me and celeste went up to take our bags, i cannot just leave her alone and ps her right? she wanted to sit with shirmaine. if i jsut leave her, she would be angry at me. and i know if i just leave you, you wouldn't be happy also right? so what can i do? you think i am happy seeing you lyk that, knowing that i am the problem? no right? and you slowly went with the guys after we went away, so we thought that you dont want to be with us, so we slowly weny away too. thinking that you rather be with them then with us. sometimes i ask you if you are okay, you just nod your head, and the next thing i see is you walking, talking with the guys. do you know i feel hurt too, i want to share your problems, but you rather share it with guys. i feel left out when your with jack they all too. i just have no one to talk to lar. cause you're always laughing with them and i'lll just keep quiet there. maybe you have not noticed that i guess. then you guys will think that im sad and just leave me alone there too. you see, when you have dean they all, you just talk to them. then i was left out. really. its okay if you nvr noticed that. and i think maybe yoyu went with him because we were with shirmaine they all right? i'm really sorry okay cheryl. if you are closer to that person and you lyk that person vry vry much, you would want to be with that person right? that is the same lyk me and shirmaine they all, we serve tgt and stuff. so we tend to be closer then my relationship with y'all. its not that i dont lyk being with you or what, but its just that.... okay. i really dont know how to explain. i hope you know how i felt being the middle of two grps. its really not a nice feeling. i rather we are ONE big grp, so that we can all hang out tgt and not have anyone feeling left out. diff ppl have diff opinions of that.
thinking about ystd again. i admit i was being a big jerk. i tried to mix back again.

cheryl, i shall now apologise to you for all the harms that i did. and i'll not ps you again.
and if i am, dont hesistate to tell me :) i'll go there for you. please give me time to change everything and bring us all back tgt as ONE again okay? really sorry cheryl.
i really love you alot and i dont want to see anyone of us sad. i dont want our relationship to end just lyk that. i was sad too that time you went to watch movie and i wasnt'n invited. although that day i was going shopping with prest they all. but seriously, i tell you, i would really rather go watch a movie with y'all. and now. if there is anything wrong happening between us. lets all just sit down at a spot and sort it out okay? this way everyone would be happy and not ahve so much misunderstandings. okay cheryl? tell me if i am in the wrong alright? sorry for evrything. and i hope things between us will get better.